Anyone who knows me by now should know that I have constant art block. Like I get artblock for weeks at a time with one day of inspiration or motivation in between. It's been like that since I got mono like 3 or 4 years ago and suffered from a really bad fever where my mom had to take me to the hospital. I'm pretty convinced that the 2 months of being bed stuck fucked me up somehow. I went from owning 20 sketchbooks to 1 half full one after that point. I also used to upload weekly. I clearly don't anymore.
I forgot how to make lines after falling ill and took a full year just to get back in to digital art. Even now though I struggle with constant art block since then.
But I've hit a new low in the art block history of Tanu. I have physically forgotten how to draw eyes. I spent 80 percent of my day yesterday at my computer struggling. If the lines weren't shaky the eyes were misshapen or uneven in some way. I tried looking at old art, I couldn't copy my old way of drawing eyes. I tried looking at other peoples art, and again it didn't feel or look right.
I feel like a 5 year old trying to make something pretty for mommy... but the terrible truth is that I have the hands of a child and I can't move them as well as an adult can just yet.
It's terrifying. I'm freaking out. What if I forget how to draw hair next? What if I forget how to color? I don't want to lose the only thing I'm good at. How did this happen? Is there a form of art block out there where you do forget how to draw? Is it temporary?
Someone save meeee. ;n;